Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Questions I want answered

What's good about walking around with your headphones in oblivious to the rest of the world?
When people ask how you are do they expect any other response other than good or fine?
What would happen if more people were honest when they answered how they were?
Why do people still stare when they see young adults with disabilities living their lives in shopping centres and other public places?
Why is it that people are becoming more accepting of certain disabilities yet for other disabilities they are still taboo?
What would happen if everyone smiled more?
Why is it that its ok for certain groups of people to judge yet for other groups its wrong and considered discrimination?
Why is it that its always the same kids who get bullied all the way through primary school and high school?
Why do people think its strange that I enjoy chatting to random people (I'll have you know some amazing friendships have come out of those conversations!)?
When will people realise that 'perfect' means something different to everyone?
When will people realise that its ok to cry and that its not a sign of weakness but strength?
When will people realise that a person is a person no matter how small?
When will people realise that its ok not to agree with everything a person says and that conflict is healthy?
What will it take for people to realise that some rules are allowed to be broken?
Why do people insist on rushing everywhere rather than just taking their time to get to places and enjoy the trip?
Why do so many cultures still put people to death for believing certain beliefs and when will people wake up and realise that its still happening?
When will people realise that maybe just maybe there is a God out there who loves you unconditionally and knows our innermost thoughts and desires who knows ourselves better than we ever will?
 To be honest I don't care if any of these questions never get answered but I do want people to think about them and realise that its good to ask questions and that some things a meant to be left unanswered.

Monday, October 20, 2014

One of those days

I am having one of those days you know those days when you have no energy and just want to do nothing? Today I have started a craft project for a friends birthday which is next week (its a variety of little things for her that I know she will love), watched some tv shows (Red Band Society and Parks and Recreation are my current go toos), eaten some M&M's (ok fine a bag of them because a girl needs chocolate some times!) and read the news in between making sure Rikki isn't causing trouble.
I have also spent the morning trying to work out who to call regarding the pedestrian railway crossing up the road from me that has malfunctioned (it won't shut up regardless of if there is a train going or not!) it turns out Mainroads are extremely helpful and will even go out of the way to help you because there is no freight train crossing hotline (can that be a thing because I have Googled it and nothing came up). So hopefully the pedestrian railway crossing will start functioning again normally so I won't have to hearing the beeping warning you there is a train and not to cross when there is not.
I am now contemplating baking brownies (chocolate people its amazing stuff!) or checking out Seek which is bound to be annoying but its what you do when you want a job (that and pray for the phone to ring). I also should keep working on my Friday Favourites post for this week but I might wait to do that while the X Factor grand final is on tonight (I don't care who wins since Reigan got eliminated last week). I seem to be having one of those days now if only I could get out of my daze and focus!

Sunday, October 19, 2014

In no particular order

So I have made some changes to this blog, in no particular order:
  • Advertising - yes I went there, I have been on the fence about it for a while but I have decided that I will do a trial run of it for a few months and see if its worth it. I figure I have nothing to loose regarding it and it would be nice to get some extra pocket money. It's only a trial but so far I'm ok with it.
  • I have combined my 'About Me' and 'FAQ' tabs into one as it was pointless having two separate tabs when they are so closely related.
  • Finally I have added a new tab which is 'Understanding Dyspraxia' as its not a well known thing (disability sounds a too strong a lable) and I want to get the word out there on it.
This past week I have had one interview which I have yet to hear back from (they said I would hear something on Friday but I heard nothing) honestly what is it with businesses refusing to get back to me after an interview?! This is my major pet peave when it comes down to the whole job application process if you have the time to interview the person you have the time to let them know BY PHONE (not email!) if they have been successful or not. If you email me telling me I haven't been successful in getting the job it just shows me that you lack confrontational and communicational skills. Also not ringing up my referees which shows me you are lazy and don't like to check your sources (one of my referees who is on the top of the list lets me know when he has had call as a heads up) also for all you know I could be (not that I am) lying about skills ect on my resume.

In one month tomorrow I can drive! Which is awesome and means that I will have freedom and be able to apply for jobs regardless of where they are located. I have a few hours left on my log book then I am done (finally!) at times I doubted whether I would get get my license but it is finally feeling real.

At the moment this week is looking normal for me nothing out of the ordinary and I am ok with that despite the fact that I would rather be working for now its what it is and I know God knows what he's doing.

Saturday, October 4, 2014

God has a plan for me

It's funny how you can know things yet you seem to forget them and all of a sudden you can get hit in the face with them. Today I was driving (trying to get my hours up, next month I can get my license!) and all of a sudden I realised that God has a plan for me and that I shouldn't worry about the future. The thing is I have known this and have been reminding myself of this daily but today it hit me in the face and really sunk in.
God knows when I will get a job and he knows all the details of it.
God knows when I will get married, who I will get married too and what our future will hold as a couple.
God knows what tomorrow will hold.
God knows what next week, next year and even 10 years down the track will hold.
God has a plan for me and you, just think about that for a minute he knows what he is doing even though at times it doesn't seem like it.
This just leaves me with one question what is God's plan for me? I guess I will just have to wait to see and know that he knows what he's doing.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

God Provides

Today I had to run errands (yes Erin had to run errands - I have heard that one before!) as I am going away this weekend and today was the only day I could as I got my youth allowance (my only source of income) now I was dreading running them as I knew I would spend most of it on these errands (getting a script filled, buying sunscreen, shampoo, kitten food, etc. the list goes on!) which would leave me around $80 for the next 2 weeks to live off. As I was leaving the shops after going over my budget and calculating that I would only have $60 to live off so I decided to check my account balance which was over a $100 more than what I thought this really puzzled me so as soon as I get home I bring up my account details and I realised that for some reason I got a bonus of $110 which explained the extra money despite spending more than what I thought I would. Once again God provided me with not only enough money to run my errands but extra to help with whatever other expenses will come up (praying that there won't be much! Saying that having a kitten is expensive).
I am sure I have mentioned this before but when I was younger my dad lost his job and he had to work odd jobs and we lived pay check to pay check and struggled to pay the bills at times. But every time it got really tough someone would leave money in our letterbox or on our doorstep anonymously or someone we knew would hand us money saying they felt it was the right thing to do. Growing up I always knew God provided and honestly receiving this bonus today when I needed it most just reassured me of that.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

What are you scared of loosing?

In a bid to help me do daily writing I recently bought a Sentence a Day journal (as I received a $10 off voucher from Kikki K as I am on their VIP list for my birthday), every day for 3 years you have to write a sentence. Yesterday's sentence was: What are you scared to loose? I had no idea what to write down because if I am being honest I am scared of loosing so much.

I am scared to loose my mind as my Grandma has dementia and I've seen what she's like and its horrible.
I am scared of loosing my positive outlook to being unemployed and trusting in God and knowing he has a plan for me.
I am scared of loosing my friends and family.
I am scared of loosing Rikki and having to start over with another cat, loosing Alfie almost wrecked me and I don't know if I could do that again.
I am scared of loosing myself to anxiety.
I am scared of loosing my ability to always see beauty in the broken.
I am scared of loosing my church family.
I am scared of loosing my ability to put myself back together after a major anxiety attack or incident.
But the thing is I shouldn't be scared of loosing the above (and so much more) as I know God won't let me loose it all, God finds the things we have lost just like he found us when we were lost.

I have been feeling lost lately, I am confused as to what I should do with myself I seem to have people telling me what career path I should take as I am still unemployed. Some people are telling me I should go into something that allows me to be creative, others are telling me I should go into the food industry because I am an amazing cook and others are just telling me that I should take whatever I can get. The thing is I am stilling getting interviews in admin (I just had an interview yesterday though whether is turns out into a job is another matter) and yes I have other talents but they are what I do to relax. I love doing admin work, I enjoy helping people even if its only for a minute, I enjoy working on computers and entering data, I enjoy filing things and seeing the pile go down, I enjoy knowing that I am part of a team and I love knowing that I have a purpose and people need me. Maybe in 10 years I will go into cooking or something creative but I am still young (20 years old!) and for now I want to work in admin and just focus on saving money and starting to pave my forward in this world.
With God we are never lost or forgotten he has a plan and sometimes he just tells us to wait even if it seems he may have forgotten us.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Turning 20 and Friday Favourites

Sorry for the delay in posts! I really wanted to write something inspirational about not being a teenager anymore and turning 20 but nothing came no matter how I hard I tried! I ended up having a picnic after church with the young adults at the lake nearby my house, the weather was perfect and the girls sat on rugs and chatted while the guys (and a couple of girls) played frisbee I honestly couldn't have planned it better! On my actual birthday (Monday) we kept it quiet my family has no major traditions regarding birthdays, I opened presents in the morning (I received some cute silver earrings and some Little Miss PJs from my parents and a cute ring from my sisters which I has managed to come off thankfully in the house and I can't find it so praying it turns up soon!) and I caught the bus into town for some window shopping and to soak up the perfect spring weather. So I am now 20 and honestly it feels normal, I am still unemployed, I am still getting my driving hours up (I get my license in 2 months and 1 day so I need to start seriously doing that!) and I am still trusting God with my future!
  A lot of blogs I read often do Friday Favourites and I have had this post sitting in my drafts for quite some time so I though I should finally post it :)

Carman's Nut Bars I am trying to eat healthy lately and one of my new favourite snacks is Carman's Nut Bars my favourites are the Dark Choc Espresso bars and the Almond, Hazelnut & Vanilla roasted bars. I am allergic to macadamia nuts so its great that both these bars don't contain them and taste super yummy! As a bonus they are gluten free (which means my younger sister can have them) and fruit free (I don't like fruit because I am weird). I have 2 boxes set aside to take down south next weekend when my church competes against other churches in sports as I am once again volunteering and they are perfect for snacks on the go :)

Biore Self Heating One Minute Mud Mask and Deep Pore Charcoal Cleanser I love Biore so when they brought out these two new products I grabbed them! I love mud masks and the Self Heating One Minute Mud Mask has been amazing. Both my younger sister and I have been using it and have noticed great results, we both love how we don't have to wait any drying time and can feel it working straightaway. As for the cleanser I was curious about the charcoal element in but it really works and my skin has been thanking me for it, I have noticed less major breakouts and reduced blackheads since using it. Definitely worth trying if you need a new cleanser of just want to treat your skin with the mask.

Tied with Love custom printed ribbon. A few months ago my younger sister was traveling over east with her dancability dance troupe and an ad for custom printed ribbon appeared on my Facebook feed. I contacted the lovely Jo enquiring about the cost as I knew the girls on the troupe would love to wear some in their hair well it turned out the Jo used to do dance classes with the company and was more than happy to donate some! She went above and beyond and donated a stack of the most beautiful ribbon (photos don't do it justice) I had ever seen, there was enough for not only for the girls to wear in their hair but to put on luggage too! It is of great quality and looks great (none of the print has come off and this is after it gone through airport security etc. and been tied and untied) . Jo is great to work with and I am already trying to find excuses to order some more (as is my mum!). I ended up ordering some for my churches sport team for the girls hair and when I showed to the rest of the team they loved and couldn't believe that it possible to order custom ribbon for such a good price and how great the quality is! If you have an event that is coming up and want to add something extra why not get some custom ribbon, I can safely say you won't regret it.

The Bloodlines Series by Richelle Mead, I loved Vampire Academy and have been tempted to download the Bloodlines books (a sister series to Vampire Academy) for ages but I couldn't justify spending the money for various reasons but recently they came down in price on Kobo so I downloaded them and couldn't put them down. I read the newest book, Silver Shadows in 24 hours the moment it came out and can't wait for the 6th and final book to be released next February. I've never been fan of vampire books (I can't stand Twilight, I tried to read it and fell asleep) but I love Richelle's writing and can't put any of her books down!

Super Food Ideas magazine, I only ever buy one magazine every month and this is it. I love the recipes and always find a few things to bake out of every issue (and they end up being family favourites!). One of the things I love about is how it never uses strange ingredients in recipes and if for some reason a recipe does use a strange ingredient they almost always explain it what it is beforehand, where to get it and if you can substitute it for anything. The amount of times I read a recipe and think that I should make it then get turned off because of an ingredient that I have no clue what it is, happens more times than not! There is also always a good selection of recipes for all occasions and everyone's preferences from budget friendly to high end dining, from yummy desserts to scrumptious savoury dishes, from beginner recipes to complex recipes and everything in between! I have bought many other cooking magazines in the past and keep coming back to Super Food Ideas, it doesn't matter if you are just starting out in the kitchen or if you are an experienced cook this magazine is well worth a look at.

Red Band Society I have just started watching this show and its addictable! Already in the first episode you feel connected to the charcters and there is something relatable about it. I have been in hospital twice in my life the first was to get my tonsils out which was required so I could have an operation done on my palate to stop the air flow through my nose (which is linked to Dyspraxia) and even though both stays weren't long and the surgeries weren't major in a sense. But both times when I was in hospital I felt a connection to the other kids that were there, we were all in this place we didn't want to be it didn't matter if we were there for a few days, a few weeks or even longer we were at this point at time in the same place. The Red Band Society manages to capture that feeling between the charcters and brings it to life you also get to see the relationships that develop in hospitals and how for some kids teenagers this is their reality and sometimes you have to make the best of a bad situation. I can't wait for the next episode and am looking forward to how it turns out.

I have no idea if this will become a regular post or not considering how long it has taken me to post this one but I will see :)

*none of the above companies know I exist, I just want everyone to know about them :)